I had a scary dream just now (yes I woke up and had to blog) I was stuck working in Bodycare in 3/5/10 years time having flunked out of yet another course. And it got me thinking, I'm not putting too much stock in this graphic design dream am I? Cause I mean yes I enjoy it but am I actually as good at it as I'd like to think I am?
I know my way round website code and I'm getting pretty decent with photoshop and I love taking photos but is graphic design too much like something I'm never going to break into?
I chose this because I enjoy doing it and I think I'm pretty okay at it but should I tie myself into it so much when I might actually be better off doing a photography something instead.
I freely admit I'd love to spend my life photographing bands and doing interviews andwhatnot bit I've never been that good at English. Sure I got an A on the Romeo&Juliet essay in year 11 but that took a week's solid work, lots of rough drafts and a stupid amount of editing. It got me what I wanted and I did eventually come out with a B at GCSE English Lit but I doubt I could pull much out of the bag for an article or review (although okay my brain can run away with me when I'm writing about something i've enjoyed, just go look at the movie reviews I did the other day, but would I want to review gigs or films or something for the rest of my life? Well, actually thinking on it, yes. I'd love to be able to say I was a photographer for a living but it's so hard to get into and could I actually get on a degree with what I can do, even after a 2 year photography alevel?
I've pretty much talked myself in circles and come to the conclusion that I really need to talk to someone at a college and see what help I can get, even if it's just with the decision of what course to take. I think my idea of doing the graphic design btech and a photography alevel is probably where I'm going to end up and then I can see which I like the most, which I'm better at and of course which I could actually get on a degree doing. I know most of you will have scrolled straight past this post cause next to nobody ever comments but if you have read this (and I congratulate you for that alone) any thoughts would be useful.
Anyway happy new year I hope you all had a nice Christmas/whichever you celebrate. I hope it snows tomorrow, I want to go for a crunchy walk in my wellies while I take my film to the developers.